the absolute freedom

i lost interest in life the moment it shows me its true face

the face of audacity, the face of arrogance, the face of human selfishness

i began to see that even altruism is a selfish attribute that change its shape

no one in this life is totally free

no one born to be free

the idea of setting ourself free by worshipping God is also a form of slavery itself

but that one probably the closest state of freedom

imam Ali once said, those who understand (the nature of) human will seek peace in an isolation

guess this is it

i start to wonder about what does freedom even means?

is it a false hope?

where did it started?

what makes one have it?

why does it being craved so much through the history of human kind?

doest it only invented to keep us fighting?

or it was a beautiful lie all this time?

all philosopher and revolutioner were rotating around the idea of freedom

with a different meaning or form of it

freedom is a scam

im sorry, Syariati, but i have to disagree

we have never born free

we born with a set of social rules and best expectation or even hope bestow upon us by another human being

and we are tied with it for the sake of peaceful life

the only valid and absolute freedom at this point

is extraction and alienation from wordly desire

even the good and positive one

and the peak form of extraction and alienation

comes in a death sentence

some will argue that death is not the end of life, but the end of free will

but brother, thats the point

the loss of will is the end of desire

free from desire is the absolute freedom a human can experience

Tentang lukaku, habis kena peluru

Mungkin untuk orang Indonesia, punya luka bekas peluru adalah sesuatu yang jarang. Wajar jika dibanggakan, negeri kita adem-ayem sejak 98. Masa reformasi pun beda dengan peperangan. Tetap jarang yang pernah kontak langsung dengan senjata.

Tapi, kalau tahu ceritanya si Omat, kekerenan bekas luka di lehernya akan hilang seketika.

Ia tertembak di Lebanon. Bukan karena hadir di medan perang, apalagi karena ikut membela Palestina, tapi sedang nonton parade.

Kesaksian Pengungsi

Bahkan kabar yang kita sebut propaganda takfiri pun tak selalu datang dari luar.

Di Suriah, tak sedikit masyarakatnya sendiri yang tak terlibat perang tapi berpikiran oposisi. Mereka sedikit banyak mengabarkan hal yang sama seperti yang dipercaya kebanyakan orang di Indonesia.

Saya bertanya pada seorang teman asal Damaskus. Sebelumnya ia sudah mengenalkan posisinya: bersama Assad dengan alasan yang cukup logis. Dengan melihat sejarah dan kondisi geopolitik secara luas. Ia berkata, "Assad bukan orang yang super baik dan benar, tapi dia terbaik diantara semua yang kita miliki saat ini".

Setelah berita bebasnya Aleppo mencuat, saya mendatanginya dan mengucap selamat. Ia tersenyum.

Lalu saya teringat seorang lain yang juga berasal dari Suriah. Ia bekerja di Lebanon untuk menghidupi keluarga di Suriah. Ia oposisi. Begitu ditanya soal kondisi negaranya, ia menceritakan soal pembantaian dsb. Persis seperti yang dipercaya kebanyakan Muslim Indonesia.